But I'm getting ahead of myself. First, we should probably talk about what constitutes a migraine. I can only write from my own experience, and refer to basic headaches not of the sinus/tension/vision variety. Also, I should let you know that I have a pretty high tolerance for pain. I don't like going to the doctor, so I definitely have a suffer-through-the-pain-and-hope-the-problem-goes-away mentality. That said, having been a headache-prone individual all my life, I classify them thusly:
Headache -- a dull ache that is annoying and painful, but you can still go about your daily routine. You can usually get rid of it by taking two extra-strength Tylenol and drinking a diet coke. Sometimes all you need is something to eat and a tall glass of water.
Intense headache -- a strong ache that is not easily gotten rid of. You can still function, but the ache in your head is ever-present and quite irritating. After trying all the above methods of pain relief, it may also help to get some rest and sleep it off. But often, these intense headaches are just a preamble to a...
Migraine -- a debilitating headache that stops you in your tracks. Your head feels like it's caught in a clamp that's being squeezed tighter and tighter. The agonizing pressure is at the front of your head, just above your eyes. Everything hurts. Light hurts, sound hurts, muscles ache, the thought of eating anything is out of the question because you feel extremely nauseous. Throwing up is not uncommon. All you can do is turn off all the lights, shut yourself away from any sound, curl up in the fetal position, apply pressure to your forehead (sounds counter-intuitive, but it's what works for me), force down some prescription meds and pray that it will go away.
When you have a migraine, you are in bare-minimum, basic survival mode. If you are able to have a normal phone conversation, watch TV, text your friends, update your facebook status, post on your blog, or surf the web, you do not have a migraine. You can't think of anything beyond "Make it stop!" There is no way to "power through" it. Honestly, it feels like your body is revolting against you. Plans are canceled, kids are left to fend for themselves, and life is put on hold while you try to make it go away.
Migraines often come at times most inconvenient. I've had migraines appear on Christmas, at Disneyland, during romantic getaways (insert your "not tonight, honey, I have a headache" joke here). Migraines don't discriminate.
It was about 6 years ago that my headaches really began to get out of control. I was having intense headaches several times a week, I had a preschooler and a toddler at home with me, and I was struggling. I got my eyes checked and ruled out any kind of connection between my headaches and my eyesight. My doctor recommended I get a CT scan, as a precaution. The results showed an abnormality in my brain. While that wasn't the most promising news, in a way I was relieved because I had hope that there was at least an explanation for what was going on. I was advised to have an MRI, and I did. Here's a tip for those of you who may someday need to go in for a brain scan: don't wear a thin white shirt to your appointment. They make you remove all metal from your body, including your underwire bra, and they keep the room with the machine in it very cold. While you are lying perfectly still with your head strapped to a contraption and placed inside a large tube, you really shouldn't have to worry about indecent exposure.
The good news: the results of my MRI showed that while I have an abnormal skull/brain, there was no sign of of a tumor or anything problematic. The bad news was that I was no closer to figuring out the cause of my headaches. I was referred to a Neurologist who helped me get a grasp on the mysteries of migraines. My understanding is that while there are certain identifiable triggers -- diet, stress, monthly cycle, lack of sleep -- the actual cause of migraines is unknown. Thankfully, there are many medications that can help migraine sufferers, and I've had to try quite a few.
I got my headaches under control and then became pregnant with my youngest child. One of the few perks of pregnancy for me is that the headaches seem to go dormant. I was uncomfortable in every other possible way, but at least I was headache free!
But like most problems that you think you've overcome, my headaches came roaring back a couple of years ago. Most often, my migraines arrive in the wee early hours of the morning. I'll wake up at 2:00am with a headache that is so intense it roused me from my sleep to make itself known. Sometimes I'll even be dreaming that I have a headache before I wake up and realize that it's not just a dream. I stumble out of bed, fight off the urge to puke, hunt for my medicine, force myself to swallow some down, crawl back in bed, then pray that I can fall back asleep and wake up headache free. Other times, it is so subtle at first, and comes on during the day so gradually, that I don't realize it right away, mistake it for a milder headache, treat it with the wrong cocktail of medicines, and then by nightfall it's in full blown migraine mode.
Though I get migraines less frequently than I used to (it's once or twice a month now), they are the worst they've ever been. In the past 96 hours I've endured a most persistent headache, and have used the following drugs in an effort to get rid of the pain:
4 Excedrin Migraine
3 Advil
2 extra-strength Tylenol
2 Imitrex
3 promethazine
It just doesn't want to go away. I'll think I've got it beat, and then it comes back. Twice in the past four days I have been pulled from sleep, once at 2:30am and the other at 4:45am, with my head feeling like it might explode. My week was wasted. At this point, I've been headache free for 12 hours. Wish me luck that I might finally have knocked this one out.
Sorry this isn't a very funny or witty post. For whatever reason, I've felt for awhile now like I needed to write about what it's like to live and cope with migraines. I know I'm not the only one who gets them. I'm curious to know if what I described is what others experience. So tell me, fellow bloggers and possible migraine sufferers, does my description sound familiar, or are your headaches different than mine? What is it like for you?
